cute creations and balloons

haha yay decided to come back to my blog coz i tot of some new stuff to post about..shall post all the lil things that i sewed/made either as gifts for people or for fun =)) heh feel free to post comments about them and let me know if u want me to sew for u!i really enjoy doing them!

sewed donuts in a box last yr!

and i learnt how to knit after that..

dint complete coz it got quite boring heh

sewed a psuedo-fruitcake for xr! shall post pics of the real one i sewed after i give it to her..

and..i saw this at mini toons during lunchtime at pp..super cute!!

whee so fun..shall buy more to do next time..

hmm and nowadays, i'm starting to like balloons.. =)

well, i think sometimes we just have to acknowledge our inner child. esp when we're all starting to get exposed to the outside world..the ugly side of people and their motives will surface. recently i experienced that in my workplace and honestly, i was kinda stunned. all the lost innocence.. sigh.

i love balloons.

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hohoho there were alot of events..outings....and i'm getting lazy to blog abt them heh.

hmm found this quote from the internet..
“What we do for ourselves dies with us. What we do for others and the world remains and is immortal.”
-Albert Pine


.....zzz and i wna go overseas too!! =(

random fb lessons

i think floorball is a great sport.
it teaches u many lessons in life..other sports also i guess. but mayb coz i learnt fb more in depth.

1) 知己知彼百战百胜: u get to learn ur opponents' strengths and try to avoid or counter them. ur opponents' weaknesses too and use them to ur advantage.
2) Fighting spirit essential in succeeding in life: surmounting one failure after another without losing passion. u shoot once, u dont get the ball in, u try again. when u score one, u go for another goal. never admit to failure and never settle for less. even when others laugh at u when u fall, u pick urself up with the mindset that u're going to attack/defend even better than u did and see if u still hear laughters. it puts a smile on my face when i see such spirit in floorball games, even for other floorball players i hardly know.
3) Humility: coz 一山还有一山高. just when u feel u're a good player, there will always be others with stronger shots, with better dribbling. so stay humble. u'll learn more that way..

these are my thoughts after watching the div 4 and 3 guys matches today.. actually i cant wait to start trg for div 2..shld be quite exciting =)

hmm

hmm yvonne invited me to join her church event ytd..had games and gift exchanges. n they showed a nice video abt this singaporean man who went to prison many times and was unrepentant..but in the end he accepted God and became a changed man. then some guy shared abt the benefits of accepting christ. finding meaning in life..overcome crisis..and one was actually to overcome bad habits. as usual i was doubtful..my dad's a heavy smoker ever since i knew he was my dad. will he really be able to kick that habit by believing in God? i dont know..
i realised there have been many christians reaching out to me recently.
after my 2nd day as recept there was a shuttle bus back to paya lebar mrt and the woman whom i sat with chat me up and found out she became a christian 40yrs after being a buddhist. asked her what made her change. and she said coz she met with a crisis. even gave me her namecard so i could contact her if i wna learn more abt christianity.
yvonne's church friends were v friendly. got to know a guy called gabriel and he asked me to join them for floorball and soccer when i'm free.
going for sportlight camp on 18th-20th too. organised by cw's church. (and i think it's kinda crazy..2 full matches each on day 1 and 2!)

i'm still sitting on the fence bah. coz there're other factors..such as family background. well..hmm.

receptionist again!

bro helped me find a 2-day receptionist job.. i dont think i'll do it again..coz it was super boring..there's v limited things that they'll teach u to do coz u're just a temp staff.. so basically i was just daydreaming when there were no calls or vistors. dint dare to read books coz my previous company actually complained to my bro =x

hmm the recept i was taking over was called Wan..another ultra friendly malay lady.. she said she was 49 yrs old and i was stunned. she looked 20,30 plus! she joked: left cheek vitamin A, right cheek vitamin C and forehead botox -_- she had to leave at noon so after she guided me thru the tasks we had a lil chit chat. she's 49 and not married yet! said she had 3 guys waiting for her..not bad..haha and she mentioned that it was more impt to be happy..whether u're married/attached or not. true..but when she knew i wasnt attached she started introducing me to the 'eligible bachelors' in the company.. i was giving her the 'diao' face..

lol the delivery man was funny. he came for both days to deliver letters. first day he asked for my name and said jokingly "stella?stella 不是印度名字吗?" -__-" second day when he knew it was my last day he said he'll cry, gotta take photos before i leave loll. dint take in the end lah..so weird!

BORED so i started drawing random stuff..eg the christmas tree in front of the recept counter haha

quite ugly drawings la..but really, i could have died of boredom. realised i'm someone who needs to keep myself occupied. i need sth for me to do and i'll be serious in getting them done..eg work, study, reading books, games. moreover just like Siltronics, they had a vid cam at the recept too so they were observing me, whether i was slacking and earning free money..and i dint want them to complain to my bro again so i had to pretend i was busy doing recept work. hate that feeling!

now just have to wait for my bro to find me other jobs..recept will be at the bottom of my list!

hmm yan asked me whether i'm interested in going for coaching courses. he said his friend kannan (is it?) asked him to ask me..i did consider it an option..one, coz of it being another source of income. two, coz i can improve myself..my own floorball skills as well as planning and organising teams.. but i think i'm not ready yet..there's still alot to learn b4 i can be a good coach. wna be a better player first too b4 i can coach teams! and i dont think there's time coz i'll be gg uni next yr! hmm maybe next time bah. after i finish uni then i'll decide if i wna go for the course. actually it's quite cool yeah..

n hey check out these 2 songs.. 'sober' by pink and 'decode' by paramore! they've got powerful voices..

Sober

I don't wanna be the girl who laughs the loudest

Or the girl who never wants to be alone

I don't wanna be that call at four o'clock in the morning

'Cause I'm the only one you know in the world that won't be home

Aahh, the sun is blinding

I stayed up again

Oohh, I am finding

That's not the way I want my story to end

I'm safe up high

Nothing can touch me

But why do I feel this party's over?

No pain inside You're my protection

But how do I feel this good sober?

I don't wanna be the girl who has to fill the silence...

The quiet scares me 'cause it screams the truth

Please don't tell me that we had that conversation

When I won't remember, save your breath, 'cause what's the use?

Aahh, the night is calling

And it whispers to me softly, "come and play"

Aahh, I am falling

And if I let myself go, I'm the only one to blame

I'm safe up high

Nothing can touch me

But why do I feel this party's over?

No pain inside You're like perfection

But how do I feel this good sober?

I'm comin' down comin' down comin' down

Spinnin' round spinnin' round spinnin' round

I'm looking for myself.. Sober

Comin' down comin' down comin' down

Spinnin' round spinnin' round spinnin' round

Looking for myself.. Sober

When it's good, then it's good, it's so good, 'till it goes bad

Till you're trying to find the you that you once had

I have heard myself cry Never again

Broken down in agony

And just trying to find a friend

I'm safe up high

Nothing can touch me

But why do I feel this party's over?

No pain inside You're like perfection

But how do I feel this good sober?

I'm safe up high

Nothing can touch me

But why do I feel this party's over?

No pain inside You're like perfection

But how do I feel this good sober?

How do I feel this good sober?

ok going for dental now!

sg flyer!

whoo! went for SIM 3on3 with kelly cw and su..played abt 4 matches only..lol ssg and pasirian v qiang!

prom! my cousin drove me there and he kept making the wrong turns! that's why i came late..when i reached i was like wow..everyone's really pretty and i was seriously underdressed! felt v weird..but still went around taking photos..shall not upload any here coz they're in facebook. these r in my hp..

me and yvonne!

last few photos b4 we left the hotel..

haha sorry allow me to zi pai for once.

u can scroll down quickly if u dont feel comfortable.. lol

hmm i think i saved quite alot of money..mum helped with makeup, did hair at nearby salon for 12 bucks, bought shoes with cy's C&K discount card haha.

actually i had a quarrel with my mum too during those few days before prom coz of money issue and clashes of interests and character.. complicated. but now glad the storm's over~ shall be more aware of how i spend my $ from today onwards.. =x

10km marathon!haha was running with pham ms and kq initially..in e end we paired up, me and pham, kq and ms. and..halfway thru i felt like gg to e toilet! walao the queue damn long..toilet damn smelly..v lil water to wash hands too. disgusting. me and pham waited till almost the whole crowd of runners ran past us -.- towards the end pham had leg cramps too..suay. she said she nv had cramps for all her other marathons before.. in the end we took a total of 90mins (hehe) to finish 10km. we held hands and sprinted the last 100m whoo! and i felt that my legs could still carry me further...mayb coz we were quite slack la..waiting for toilet and all that lol nvm next time if i participate again i'll challenge myself to run all the way...

haha towards the end i saw amos with his friends. he spotted me and started cheering "go stella!go!" ..abit 丢脸 ah coz everyone else turned to look lol. but, having someone u know cheering u on was alot better than those over-enthu cheerleaders..seriously.

mingshuan phamelia and me

just before the run

can u notice the jittery smiles..

we completed 10km! =)

zh went back coz he dint feel well..

our medal!
haha those who completed will get them =)

speaking about flying in my previous post..i went to 'fly' with my family on e 8th! haha my mum had discounts for the singapore flyer..b4 that we were at taka coz we wanted to use our taka vouchers..not bad uh..we really are the 省钱大家族..discounts..vouchers..everything also can save..lol. b4 we went in we were given a headset each to tell us sg history n stuff? wasnt really listening to it haha..ok shall let the photos illustrate..

highest point of the flyer!

165m...

national stadium and esplanade..

that's part of the stretch we ran for the marathon!

my bro and me

waha now's my turn to disturb him!

my dad took a photo of my mum and bro who tried to take a photo of me..

my mum sure doesnt know how to take photos..

ahh that's better! =)

the Tan family!

lol this is one of the rare family photo we ever took..
coz my mum says she doesnt look nice in photos..well u dont have to b photogenic to take photos..u just have to smile!! =D

took photos with these monkeys..

i was holding the hand of the smaller one..so cute!

my bro went to hold the leg -.-

the smaller one doesnt look happy at all lol

after that went to eat korean food!u know that kao3 rou4 that u wrap with fresh vege..nice! k shall end here n blog abt my interesting 2-day receptionist on 9th and 10th tmr!

hmm sidenote..sometimes i think what is presented here in a blog may not be what it exactly is in real life..like the photos above..we looked like we had fun..but actually b4 we got on the flyer we were quite bored! zz.. n my previous posts may seem too perfect..too good to be true.. n my 'interesting' 2-day was actually quite sian! lol hmm.. food for thought!

ciao~

i hate this part

i'm back from 2d chalet. and i cant explain how i'm feeling now.
the night before i told my mum there's a chalet. n she was like "huh go out again. what time come back?" i dint dare to even kai kou abt staying over. coz a few days ago i asked her if i could stay over at eunice's hse n rcvd an immediate no from her. i really hate this...girls who're in my shoes will understand. it's like u wna go out with ur friends..stay out late..but ur parents (esp mums) will be full of complains and it makes u feel like u're making her angry by not being a good daughter.
i'm not sure if my mum will read this. high prob. i dont care. i really hate it when she says that i'm a girl and she doesnt like girls to keep going out. she says girls shld stay at home, always. stay at home n rot? go out 3 days straight and she'll start questioning, start showing me her temper. when i show her mine she'll blow her top and say she wont care abt me anymore. i hate this. so gradually i became a mum-pleaser. go out for some days..stay at home and b a guai girl that she wants for the next few days..lol dint know it was the same for mich too. sometimes i just wish i was a boy altogether. then i wont hear reasons like 'it's dangerous for a girl to b out so late.'
the thing is, i know my parents are worried abt my safety. and i feel fortunate coz they care alot for me. even came to fetch me from the chalet. hai dilemma uh. how the kite (u) wants so badly to fly far into the sky but the string that's attached to it is so taut. u're so frustrated coz u lack freedom, and at the same time u're thankful coz without it u'll get lost in the vast sky.

that's the reason why i wna get a job. prove to them that i can be independent, that i dont have to keep relying on them for pocket money, that i'm 18 and almost an adult now. i really need the string to be a lil less taut soon. or else i'll just fall flat to the ground..being unable or unwilling to fly up high again.